Well i thought about it a lot and spoke with many people about this decision.
But i think i call it the end and finish the testing phase myself.
Not because i don't want to anymore, but more because i think i already now the outcoming of this "last" chance in the condition i have right now.
I don't think i'm too bad, but right now i'm just not fast enough.
So after a long discussion with Kitos I came to the conclusion that i start to train on my own...that i will improve a lot, maybe join a less "awesome" team and get some experience there. And when i'm good enough i'll make my move again and apply a second time.
I loved the time training with you and i already think i improved somewhat. But i can improve much more and so i focus on that instead of desperatly trying to join you at a position where i'm not a big help to get NWT back to the top like it used to be.
It's a hard decision because i already got a real bad liking to you crazy guy.
But i hope i can still join the server if i want to have a fun time or to spectate some of you unhuman beasts
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It's not the end! I try again. And when i'm back there is no one who can reach my level of motivation and determination for joining and helping NWT!
So long my friends,
Tim / fnir